life update

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Me: Hey God. I wanted to update You on my life. I know You already know it, but I want to reflect on it with You.

God: Okay. Let’s do it. But first, how are you doing?

Me: I’m doing good. Physically, I’m a bit exhausted because of anxiety and the weather, but I’m been drinking gatorade and electrolyte water here and there. That’s been helping me a lot. Thank You for those drinks. I’m also learning about myself as well as Steph. I’ll tell you a bit more, but I really hope our relationship ends up in marriage. So, overall, I’m doing pretty well in life. I’m looking forward to the regional staff conference. I have to babysit, but I’m up for the challenge. I get to be with my favorite age group of 1 to 2 year olds. hahaha.

God: Sounds like you’re doing well and enjoying life and learning a lot about who I intended you to me. Keep on at it. What else has been going on in your life?

Me: Well, yesterday, I hung out with Steph’s parents. They are a fun bunch. I do have to admit that I get a bit overwhelmed or maybe exhausted is a better word, because they have such energetic family. They laugh a whole bunch. It was a bit strange though because they’re not Christians. The comfort level of topics and things to talk about was limited. That’s just something I need to work on though. I think it’ll help me in my personal growth being around non-believers. I wonder what it’ll be like when Steph meets my parents. I do see lot of Steph in her dad. They are both very caring and dominating. She really is a daddy’s girl. Oh yea. It was weird how Steph’s parents dropped me off too. I should’ve asked if she wanted to be together after we hung out with her parents. I think it would’ve helped if I knew that she had other things to do that night, so she couldn’t hang out with me. I’ll talk to her about that soon. Also, on Thursday, I talked to Steph about some areas that I was a bit annoyed or more like frustrated about. One being that she over analyzes lots of words. Lot of the things she thinks through, I don’t think are necessarily necessary. That was why it was good hearing her intentions behind it which was to make sure people are on the same page as her. I also have to remember that she thinks outwardly. So I might be doing the same thing as her, but just not saying it outwardly. Through Ruda, I realized more that we are both very cautious people as well. I think she’s actually more cautious than I am. I feel overwhelmed when we talk about our differences, but there’s something always tugging me to like her more. It’s very strange, because I have doubts during those times as well. The thing is, I think this will all be worth in as we continue to get to know each other better. I like her, God. This might be too soon to tell, but I want to marry her. The day she cried in front of me because of me, I think that’s when I really realized this is something serious and I want to go way further in commitment.

Also, I would like my relationship with You to be more intimate. I think because I’m doing the daily Bible reading, I get drained from just reading that I don’t spend as much quality time with You as much as I’d like. I am definitely growing through it, but I’m going to go back to reading little by little once I’m done with this year. I think Hebrews would be a good place to start. It seems very rich from what I’m reading right now. I feel like I’m in a bit of a spiritual halt right now. I’m not sure what I’m learning or whether I’m really being humble before You or submitting myself to You these days. I guess this is once again where I have to rely on the truth rather than feelings. I am a pretty emotional guy huh?

I do want to pray for few things before I stop writing. Can you continue to watch over Greg and Elise. They are in much need of You still. Provide Greg with a perfect heart for him too. They and we are trusting in Your timing right now. I also pray for the students of Epic. For new leaders, those who aren’t Christians, those serving, etc. Let them grow in their relationship with You if they have one and start one if they don’t have one.

Well, Thanks for listening to me. Help me to live a Spirit filled life not according to my ways, but Yours. Help me to submit to You. I have failed in so many accounts these days.